Monday, March 24, 2014

Resistance And Revelations

You know, I've come to realize that one of the reasons why I'm so comfortable taking my life in the direction I'm going is because I really am an expert in what I'm teaching.

I'm an expert because I'm not perfect and have never claimed to be.

And it is my human imperfections that lead to periods of not practicing what I preach, for whatever reasons.

For instance, I received a beautiful blessing last year.

A gift.  A brand new digital camera. A Cannon Rebel.

I did not see this coming and was literally in shock over it for quite a while.

I've needed a good camera for a long time and I've known that it's time to go digital.

When this gift literally fell in my lap, I just didn't know what to do, mainly because I chose to let the photography go so I could focus on my new venture here on the web.

I tried to take photos with it, but was struggling to get comfortable with this new camera.  

I've been using it mainly for shooting videos and when I needed a photo for the blog, I'm ashamed to admit that I've been using my old method over taking advantage of my new camera.

Then I purchased some new video making software and found myself in the same boat.

Those of you who follow me on Facebook will remember this:

Yes.  I had both a great camera and great software that I was thrilled to have, yet completely resisting.

I could get into all the reasons why, but I'm not going to bore you with my own psychoanalyzing.

That's not what this is about.

The reality is, once I acknowledged and confronted my resistance everything started to come together.

One day, I started to seize a photo op the old way and forced myself to get the new camera out.

Everything went well and the camera started feeling like my old camera: an extension of my Self.

And Then The Silly Stuff Started...

Of course it did.  I can't have a revelation without getting all emotional.

I started crying, sat down with my camera, hugged it and apologized for not honoring it like I should have.

I believe I said, "I'm sure your kind are used to this sort of resistance," and then began laughing as I thought about my former boss who refused to learn Windows because it had taken him "too much damn time" to learn DOS.

All of the documents I typed in Microsoft Word I had to convert to DOS so he could edit and then I would convert it back to Word to finish things up.

This led to realizing a lot of this was due to me getting my "old fart" on, so I pushed myself to use the software and discovered the beyond user-friendly tutorial that came with it.

Oh!  The Timing!

Yes.  All this resisting and revealing couldn't have happened at the worst time.

It was affecting meeting the deadline I had set up for finishing my class.

I had already let Shannon know that I was struggling with the software and that my class would not be done in time.  Turned out she had family stuff going on and I saw that Kangaroo were in her neighborhood via a bunch of great photos she posted on Facebook.

Thanks to Shannon, for letting me post these. Isn't this amazing?
For our own very different reasons, there was something bigger than our classes that needed our attention.

We are both so focused on the timing of our workshop so we can show you how to get control of your life by getting control of the sustainability of your food.

And we really want this out in time for the Spring planting in the Northern Hemisphere (which has already started).

I have a friend who farms and she has assured me that mid April is still OK.

So, as a result, Shannon and I are OK and we are really eager to finish things up, so we can share all of this great, life-changing information with you.

Love and hugs,

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