Monday, May 19, 2014
Let me tell you about the other day.
I had not been that passionate and that pissed off in a loooooooooooong time.
I was hot!
It was fierce!
MY KNICKERS WERE TWISTED!
It was my day job.
The day job that used to educate me, emotionally support me, reward me and inspire me was, in a split second, gone.
Part of my yearly planning was to peacefully leave my day job. It is truly getting in the way of my business.
I just want to let it go ~ Without any drama, lama ding dong.
And that is scary, because it really has given me a great sense of security for the past 10 1/2 years.
What at first seemed to be an insane, "Really?-One more thing?-This is stroke-level crap!" moments, turned out to be the answer to one of the longest prayers I've ever been engaged in:
"Help me allow something greater. Help me release this sense of security. Help me know when it is time to go because I don't know."
In the moments following, I was called to stand up for myself and others, because I was the only one who had absolutely nothing to lose, if I got "in trouble".
Part of it's my age.
At 45, I'm at an age where very little in the work/life arena makes me fearful.
Mainly because of how little of my life revolves around the money my J.O.B. brings in.
It's important ~ OH YES!
But, I am atypical Gen X and I have always valued my freedom before money and material possessions.
As a result I've created a life where I don't live in fear of losing my job anymore.
I know how to manifest what I need ~ even money.
I don't over extend myself financially.
I have my own business.
I have a loving, respectful partner who is on "the same page" as me on so many levels; including starting his own business and manifesting what he needs.
YEAH. I'M NOT GOING TO LIE. IT'S PRETTY NICE. : )
And that's what I was left with after processing all of the facts and all of my emotions.
The most amazing gift.
The reminder that I have always been free and that I am free to go, anytime I'd like.
Love and hugs,