I have been in pain.
Lots of it.
Physical therapy is necessary and challenging.
For the past week I have been dealing with severe hip and knee pain.
Hip and knee pain?
"I thought you broke your ankle?"
OH! THE REALITY!
Here's the deal.
When you are not allowed to put weight on your ankle for twelve weeks, all of the muscles that coincide with this process will atrophy.
I did a lot of leg and knee lifts, as well as thigh squeezes while I was following my doctor's orders, which helped, but still could not avoid the reality that important muscles were not being used.
So, not only am I exercising the bejeezus out of my ankle at PT, I am also doing a lot of work on my knees and hips.
A lovely quote from me to the students in my Brilliant Blogging Facebook Group.
Because I was having an especially difficult week, I was late posting the Weekly Q&A.
Physical therapy is beneficial, but it can also be grueling.
My gratitude-filled outlook was nowhere to be found.
I was tired.
Tired of being in pain.
Tired of not being able to run up and down the stairs.
Tired of not being able to stand for more than an hour or so.
Tired of not working.
Tired of my only face-to-face, social interaction being with my family and my physical therapist.
Tired of being "broken".
The last five months just came crashing in and I was beat.
PERMISSION TO BE HUMAN...
I am not one of these people who can't stand it when things get real.
I don't shy away from how horrible life can get.
I don't stick my head in the sand.
AND I don't dismiss friends who need to vent on a bad day.
You will never hear me cut them short with a "Well, it sounds like you're going to be fine", followed by changing the subject.
"You have to feel to heal."
If that means facing something icky and shedding a few tears, then do it!
TODAY IS BETTER...
I am happy to say that things are coming along.
I am still in pain.
I am still frustrated.
But not as much.
I know in my heart that this is temporary.
That "this too shall pass".
And I know in my heart that this is all leading to something more spectacular than I could ever come up with on my own.